What is anxiety and do i have it?

anxiety is when you feel an over whelming sense of anxiousness and nervousness. It doesn't sound to me that you have this, I believe you are suffering from depression. Please go to a doctor and explain what your feeling to them. If you cant avoid it there are programs out there to help you get the help you need. No one should have to feel the way you are feeling. Go to doctor you owe it to yourself. I wish you the best